And so Elle Jay speaks...

Jan
16 2011
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I’m here today, with so much anger realizing that what i’ve suspected all these while is indeed true. So i was not wrong to be mad with you when you spared more time with her. and the fact that u got the nerve to be all mad when i did that, piss me off big time. you accused me of being paranoid and that i dun trust you. well, dude, JUST LOOK AT HOW THINGS ARE RIGHT NOW.

you are a huge disappointment. i dun even know if i can ever forgive you. that much i have to say now.our friends were right too all these while. you have changed, TREMENDOUSLY!

and oh ya, hope your krabi honeymoon with your beloved, just the both of ya, was a good one.

xoxo,

Jan
13 2011
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Tik,.,tik,.,.tik
Waktu berdetik
Tak mungkin bisa ku hentikan
Maumu jadi mauku
Pahitpun itu ku tersenyum

Kamu tak tahu rasanya hatiku
Saat berhadapan kamu

Tik,.,tik,.,.tik,.,.
Air mataku
Biar terjatuh dalam hati
Mau ku tak penting lagi
Biar ku buat bahagiamu

Kamu tak tahu rasanya hatiku
Saat berhadapan kamu
Kamu tak bisa bayangkan rasanya
Jadi diriku, yang masih cinta

Kamu tak tahu hancurnya hatiku
Saat berhadapan kamu
Kamu tak bisa bayangkan rasanya
Jadi diriku, yang masih cinta

Jan
12 2011
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Last night i dreamt of you and “her”.. It was at some village location.. I cried so bad in that dream..

When I woke up, i realised my cheeks, my neck and my pillow were wet.. It was then that I realised those were tears and that I was really tearing earlier..

No words can describe how much I miss you.. Its weird that even having a new person in my life didnt change things. He treats me well. He makes me feel special. But its still you. I’m still thinking of you. I’m still missing you. I’m consistently wondering how you are doing and if you ever, for a second, missed me too. I know that I should be hating you by now. But i cant bring myself to do so. My heart is as stubborn as I am. Just like how you’ve always described me. The Stubborn One.

I came across the above text. And this made me tear even more. =,( I hope you are doing well there mfa.

Dec
08 2010
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i miss you babe, i really do.

Nov
26 2010
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mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku
mengagumi tanpa di cintai
tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia
dalam hidupmu, dalam hidupmu

telah lama kupendam perasaan itu
menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku
tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah
bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku

ku ingin kau tahu diriku di sini menanti dirimu
meski ku tunggu hingga ujung waktuku
dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya
dan ijinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejab saja

How come its still you that’s residing in my mind, heart..?

And i thought that by having someone else to replace you would make me forget you thoroughly…. Its been abt 7 mths over now… But that’s not happening still………

Why does it have to be this difficult…….? Sigh… If only you knew….~ =,(